Dear Future Self

 Dear Me, 

Look at you. I am so proud of you! You broke free from the darkness that tried to consume you. 

Broke free from the suicidal thoughts that lingers your mind every day and every night. 

Broke free from the pressure to fit in and learned to be yourself. 

Broke free from hating yourself and learning to love yourself.

Broke free from believing that you aren't special or strong enough but proving yourself wrong. 

Learned from your mistakes, forgiving yourself, and remembering that the past you don't define who you are right now.

You continue to grow and heal yourself every day, transforming yourself into a rare and beautiful masterpiece, that I hardly recognize you myself.

You continue to dream of the life you want, and you continue to work harder and harder to make it come true. 

The waiting, the praying, the sacrifice, and the sleepless nights. Believe me, they were worth it.

You kept going because you knew you deserved to know what not giving up on yourself would look like.

Choose progress over perfection. Remember, being perfect or having the perfect life doesn't always exist...unless you are working for it. Small steps lead to big changes. 

I wish I could hold your hand and walk with you on this amazing journey, but I know you are strong and capable.

You chose to grow, to become the kind of woman who knows her worth, holds her visions, and lives with soul.

Built self-respect. Space for a real deep, lasting love.

Yes, we are still single and lonely, but it will be worth the wait. Because when he does come, remember, don't wonder if you deserve him. Just know that he will be your partner, your friend, your home.

Thank you for not giving up on yourself. 

Keep going love.

I'm proud of you.

I'm with you always.

Our Love Story

Feeling like the world is against us, but what keeps us going is that spark of love that keeps burning. I can't give up because you gave me the strength and courage to keep going. 

Our love is like a fairytale from a book.

Our love is forbidden like Romeo and Juliet.

Something about you, I can't seem to get enough of.

Even when I'm getting the feeling I may lose a chance of seeing you again.

Our love for each other continues to get stronger, where no one can tear us apart.

I fell in love while I was broken, and now I feel even harder while I'm healing.

It's not like we can control this deep attachment we have for each other because, we have this invisible red string of powerful connections.

It can't be cut.

It can't be broken.

No matter the twists and tangles it does, it leads me to you. 

It leads you to me.

Our love story, it's just the beginning. It's up to us to keep writing.

Cloud Dreams

Thinking I was alone on my dream cloud, I woke up startled with you staring at me. You scared me, but it was the good kind. Sitting there with me, at the edge of my cloud, smiling at me, you always show up when I'm in a tiny mood. But this time, it was about you.

We need to talk. Are you afraid of me? No? You're afraid I'm going to repeat the cycle again.

Yeah, I figured. If that was the case, I would have walked into the light instead of following you back here. This growth and change I’m doing, it’s called healing. This is just baby steps. The beginning of something new. Like Troy and Gabriella start of something new—don’t start singing that song. Do not. What I’m trying to say is, I would rather be locked back in that cage with the dog collar around my neck then repeat what I did before. Healing is what I need right now frankly I’ve been doing a lot better now. By the looks of it, you need it too. Don’t look at me like that. You came here! Don’t laugh because it’s not funny. As of matter of fact, you see that door right there? That lead to your dreamland. Go to it. I’m about to dream of a hot tub and skinny dip in it and no you cannot join. Don’t give me that look. If I wanted you to join me, I would have asked you too. Now get out.